Let's start from the very beginning.....
>> Wednesday, February 22, 2017
So a lot has changed from the last time I updated this blog. Let's hit the highlights...
1. I am a nurse now :) I absolutely love my job with everything inside of me. Nursing school was the hardest and most rewarding thing I have ever done.
2. I recently moved to Memphis and took a job at St. Jude
Ok. Let's be for real that's not all that has happened in the time that I haven't been blogging but for now that'll have to do.
I am blogging today because I discouraged and I figured that I would start documenting this new journey I am on. I doubt anyone will follow this because it's not near as fun as when I was living in Orlando. I mean, come on, who doesn't want to live at Disney?
So for the last 6 weeks, I participated in a thing called The World's Best Bootcamp. It was incredibly challenging but rewarding at the same time. I was raised not working out or being physical. That has been made clearly apparent in the last few weeks. God has blessed me with a disease free life and I have taken advantage of my health. When I started working at St. Jude I realized how precious good health is so I have decided to take my health back into my hands. Hence, I started Bootcamp. Well Bootcamp ended Saturday--so where does that leave me? Apparently it left me at Crossfit. Gasp! I know it's such a scary horrible word. I had a mini panic attack when I signed up for it. Bootcamp left you feeling like a champ. Last night after CF.. Im not going to lie. I felt defeated. Discouraged. Scared. Overwhelmed.
STOP! Stop it right now. That's what I have to keep telling my negativity. I am not going to get healthy overnight. It is a day by day thing. It took me 28 years to get to this state that I am. Unhappy. Unhealthy. Embarrassed. Ashamed. I don't like going out. I am always super self conscious. This is raw. This is real. I want to be better. I want to be ok with going out in public and being with people. This isn't overnight. This isn't instant. This is a problem that I will tackle and face head on. I know I am going to be discouraged. I know it's going to be hard, but I can do this. I have to be better.
Bear with me. But I am starting. That is the first step. Showing up. Starting. So let's do this.