>> Tuesday, September 21, 2010

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
let this blest assurance control,
that Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
and hath shed his own blood for my soul.

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!

My sin, not in part but the whole,
is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
the clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
the trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
even so, it is well with my soul.

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Some Days are Better than other....

>> Monday, September 20, 2010

Today was a "other" type of day. I work 7p-7a so lets start there. My night at work was absolutely awful. The RNs thought I was going to have to go to ER because they thought I was having a panic attack. My heart rate, bp, respiration, and blood sugar jumped up. I have never had a feeling like that before. I ran the entire night. It was a long awful night; I couldnt get caught up. I was constantly busy. Most nights things die down from 2-4 so I can get caught up on charting and little other things. Not last night. Then my people that relieve me showed up and clocked-in 30 minutes late. It started off rough at 7:30 when I got off and has continued that way. When I got home I checked some of our lovely online "social networking" site (Aka. Blogger.com, Facebook, and Twitter).......skkkkerrrk. Let me back up.

*Sidenote: Somethings happened a few months back that have turned my world upside down. Some days are better than other with coping with what happened. It's a struggle everyday. I hate how good Ive gotten at acting like Im ok, but to be honest I am wreck. Even after three or so months Im still a wreck. Sometimes its a chore just to wake up and sometimes its just an after thought. Today this particular struggle was a huge burden and roadblock. Ok, back to the story.*

Ok, So I checked my normal websites and saw things that triggered the emotions. I was to tired to fight crying so it just happened. I slept from 8:30 until 1:30. When I woke up I immediately started crying. I sobbed. Not like little ones, like ones that make your eyes so red that it looks like someone cold-clocked you in the eyes. I tried to sober and I couldnt. The more I tried to stop cryin, the worse I cried. I went downstairs. My Dad was really worried and at first I couldnt catch my breath to tell him what was wrong. When I finally spoke all I could get out was, "Some days are harder than others." My Dad and I worked out together and that helped so much. Then I got alone again and then began the water works again. So I decided to stop letting myself be alone. I called two friends and invited them over to watch the premier of Chuck. We didnt do anything, but it was the pick me up I needed. We ate, talked, and watched t.v. It meant the world to me that one of them came over just because I told him I had a bad day.

Yes, now that I am alone, I am crying again. I know that I am a strong person, but sometimes it doesnt feel that way. Sometimes I feel like I can't get out of bed. Today was one of those days. So all I am asking is for prayers. Pray that I can get over this hurdle. Pray that my heart can heal. Thank you for your prayers. Today wasnt a great day, but tomorrow is a clean slate. Tomorrow is a different day. Tomorrow just like today is a gift from God. Tomorrow is just what I need.

"Just thinking about tomorrow
cleares away the cobwebs and the sorow
'till their none
when i'm stuck with a day that's gray and lonely
i just think of my chin and grin and say oh
the sun'll come out tomorrow
so you gotta hang until tomorrow
come what may
tomorrow tomorrow i love ya tomorrow
your always a day away "

Tomorrow is only 30 minutes away. I love yall. God Bless.

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Things I Love Thursdays

>> Thursday, September 16, 2010


To everything there is a season, and
a time to every purpose under the heavens:
Ecclesiastes 3:1


If I had to live in the same season for the rest of my life it would hands down be Fall. Last year when I was living at Disney, I didnt get to see the seasons change. It was something I missed terribly. They just have three settings hot, hotter, and hottest. There were maybe two or three days that I had to bundle up but not many. I was so sad when I realized that I was going to miss Fall. I decided tonight to blog about why I love fall so here are my reasons I love fall.

*The cool crisp air
*The clouds are wispier
*The sky is a brighter blue
*The days where you can walk out and smell the air and leaves burning
*The corn fields are golden
*The vivid orange, purple, reds, and yellow leaves
*Pumpkins
*Halloween
*Thanksgiving
*Bonfires
*Smores
*Fall Festivals
*Hot Apple Cider and Hot Chocolate
*Fall Retreats
*Candy Corn
*Caramel Apples
*Jackson Orchard
*New Member's Fish Fry at Church
*Perfect weather when long sleeve tshirts are all you need in the day, and bundling up at night makes for wonderful times.
*I get to wear hoodies and zip-up jackets
*Football season
*Hayrides
*Cornmazes
*Grilling out with the family
*Jumping in piles of leaves
*Playing card with Corey and Shannon at Thanksgiving
*Turkey and Dressing
*The smell of baked apple pies, mums, roasted nuts, toasted marshmallows outside and baking pumpkin seeds
*Driving down back roads looking at the trees, smelling the air, looking at old barns, and acting like I have all the time in the world.

Yes, I am ready for fall.

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Simply Blessed

>> Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I know it is wordless Wednesday, but I have too many words to say to just post pictures. Tuesday was a eye-opening blessing filled day. I was on my way to school and I have to take a back road. It's a road I know I drive to fast on, but it's a paved wide-open space. I was about 15 minutes down that road and there was a man standing in the middle of the road. I had to stop(obviously), but I had to stop because there has been a crash. There were at least 6 clean-up vehicles. It simply broke my heart when I was finally allowed to go, because I drove over the blood and glass. It hit me. That was someone's blood. I dont know what happened, if the people were ok, or even how many people were involved. All I know is that they were people. I thought. I cried. I prayed. That was all I could because seeing that wreck helped me realize that that could have been me. It could have been me. Seeing that helped me realize that I need to take more opportunities to do things Im not use to doing. Seeing that wreck has impacted my life more in two short days, than 21 years of lectures about "making the most of things." The rest of Tuesday went on as planned. Class, lunch, class and then home. However, I took time to go sit and talk with a friend I ran into instead of sayin, "No. I have to go study." I said yes, and even if I did miss out on some of study time, I wont remember that in a few weeks. I will remember the lunch that I had with that friend. Simply Blessed.

Tuesday night I was invited to go sing at WKU with some fellow Christians. They do it every Tuesday night in the football stadium. I had originally said yes, but when I got home I decided not to go. Well, then I started thinkin about how I am going to start sayin yes more often. So I rechanged(is that a word?) my mind back to yes. So I went to the singing. Not only did I experience a wonderful Spiritual time(which I greatly needed), I made some awesome new friends and hung out with some people that I havent seen sense high school. It never fails that when I hang out with fellow Christians(the ones that actually practice what they preach) I feel so much better. I laughed a whole lot. It felt good simply to smile and laugh; not having to fake it like I have been for months now. There wasn't the cussin, smokin, or pressure to drink like with a lot of my other friends. No one made jokes at me because I was a Christian. These are genuine people whom I can rely on. I havent had that feelin in a long time. And even though we just met, it was wonderful to meet new people who shared beliefs like I do. AND THAT WASNT THE END TO MY DAY! Simply Blessed.

I went to the singing with one of my best friends. He drove. Once we got back to his house, we started talking. We were looking at the stars and simply having a good heart to heart. We went and laid on the hood of my car and talked. We talked about life, death, our choices, and whether or not we think we are going to make it to heaven. You know, the good stuff. It was phenomenal. We talked for a little over 2 hours. When I got home, I simply felt blessed. Simply Blessed.

Today the blessings didnt stop. They came in smaller packages, but nevertheless they came. I got text from friends I havent heard from in a while saying that they valued our friendship and missed me. I got 4 wall post from friends saying that I was missed. I worked out with my Dad, and even though we were out of breath(We walked 2.4 miles) we talked. Then he taught me how to drive the tractor. Its. the small things. I loved being under the sunshine with the breeze blowing and riding the tractor. I just simply rode it around the field again and again and again. I was grinning from ear to ear.Simply Blessed.

Then. I got to go to church. Church is something I look forward to every week, because when I get there I know I am loved. I know that they are my family. Christine Brewer and I teach a class together. We teach the high school, some college, and tonight the middle school girls. I learn from them just as much as I try to teach them. We sang for the first 15 minutes of class tonight and it sounded simply heavenly. I hope these girls are getting just as much out of this class. Simply Blessed.

After church I went to my friend Klents house. We watch Top Chef every week. I love the fact that there was 7 of us there to watch a cooking show just so we could hang out together. We didnt have to fill the silence we all just sat there watching tv, and being content with each other's company. Simply blessed.

I hope you all have a wonderful day. God Bless

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