Summary of the Last 3 months of my life....

I really am alive I promise. I just kind of fell off the face of the planet. It was easier that way. So let me update you briefly on the last 3 months of my life. WORK. SCHOOL. SLEEP. Ok? Ok. Thats about it. Somehow I managed to get some babysitting hours in and as well as a few little trips. Ill blog about those later. No worries. I wrote about them in a journal so you wont miss any details, but for right now let's update you by months:


October:
I went to West Virginia and accidentally ended up in Ohio.


I went to a free concert in Nashville with EmBem and made a new friend afterwards.
I didnt do anything for Halloween because I worked

November:

I worked. A lot.
I went to see UT and Ole Miss play. It was UT's Homecoming which was neat.



I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I got to spend Thanksgiving Day with My Mom's family....


And Friday Night with my Dad's



December:
I got to hang out with my college friends and make gingerbread houses



I spent my Mom's birthday taking her out and going to a play.

See the Rockettes with some of my childhood friends and Mom.



I got to have a White Christmas with my family and see my nephews.



My Dads family on Sunday and My Mom's family on Monday. It was a really short trip, but a good one. I will post some Christmas pictures as soon as Mom gets home. She is still in Bama.

I have a lot of stories for you, friends, so get ready. I love you all! God Bless.

Read more...

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
let this blest assurance control,
that Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
and hath shed his own blood for my soul.

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
the clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
the trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
even so, it is well with my soul.

Read more...

Some Days are Better than other....

Today was a "other" type of day. I work 7p-7a so lets start there. My night at work was absolutely awful. The RNs thought I was going to have to go to ER because they thought I was having a panic attack. My heart rate, bp, respiration, and blood sugar jumped up. I have never had a feeling like that before. I ran the entire night. It was a long awful night; I couldnt get caught up. I was constantly busy. Most nights things die down from 2-4 so I can get caught up on charting and little other things. Not last night. Then my people that relieve me showed up and clocked-in 30 minutes late. It started off rough at 7:30 when I got off and has continued that way. When I got home I checked some of our lovely online "social networking" site (Aka. Blogger.com, Facebook, and Twitter).......skkkkerrrk. Let me back up.

*Sidenote: Somethings happened a few months back that have turned my world upside down. Some days are better than other with coping with what happened. It's a struggle everyday. I hate how good Ive gotten at acting like Im ok, but to be honest I am wreck. Even after three or so months Im still a wreck. Sometimes its a chore just to wake up and sometimes its just an after thought. Today this particular struggle was a huge burden and roadblock. Ok, back to the story.*

Ok, So I checked my normal websites and saw things that triggered the emotions. I was to tired to fight crying so it just happened. I slept from 8:30 until 1:30. When I woke up I immediately started crying. I sobbed. Not like little ones, like ones that make your eyes so red that it looks like someone cold-clocked you in the eyes. I tried to sober and I couldnt. The more I tried to stop cryin, the worse I cried. I went downstairs. My Dad was really worried and at first I couldnt catch my breath to tell him what was wrong. When I finally spoke all I could get out was, "Some days are harder than others." My Dad and I worked out together and that helped so much. Then I got alone again and then began the water works again. So I decided to stop letting myself be alone. I called two friends and invited them over to watch the premier of Chuck. We didnt do anything, but it was the pick me up I needed. We ate, talked, and watched t.v. It meant the world to me that one of them came over just because I told him I had a bad day.

Yes, now that I am alone, I am crying again. I know that I am a strong person, but sometimes it doesnt feel that way. Sometimes I feel like I can't get out of bed. Today was one of those days. So all I am asking is for prayers. Pray that I can get over this hurdle. Pray that my heart can heal. Thank you for your prayers. Today wasnt a great day, but tomorrow is a clean slate. Tomorrow is a different day. Tomorrow just like today is a gift from God. Tomorrow is just what I need.

"Just thinking about tomorrow
cleares away the cobwebs and the sorow
'till their none
when i'm stuck with a day that's gray and lonely
i just think of my chin and grin and say oh
the sun'll come out tomorrow
so you gotta hang until tomorrow
come what may
tomorrow tomorrow i love ya tomorrow
your always a day away "

Tomorrow is only 30 minutes away. I love yall. God Bless.

Read more...

Things I Love Thursdays

To everything there is a season, and
a time to every purpose under the heavens:
Ecclesiastes 3:1


If I had to live in the same season for the rest of my life it would hands down be Fall. Last year when I was living at Disney, I didnt get to see the seasons change. It was something I missed terribly. They just have three settings hot, hotter, and hottest. There were maybe two or three days that I had to bundle up but not many. I was so sad when I realized that I was going to miss Fall. I decided tonight to blog about why I love fall so here are my reasons I love fall.

*The cool crisp air
*The clouds are wispier
*The sky is a brighter blue
*The days where you can walk out and smell the air and leaves burning
*The corn fields are golden
*The vivid orange, purple, reds, and yellow leaves
*Pumpkins
*Halloween
*Thanksgiving
*Bonfires
*Smores
*Fall Festivals
*Hot Apple Cider and Hot Chocolate
*Fall Retreats
*Candy Corn
*Caramel Apples
*Jackson Orchard
*New Member's Fish Fry at Church
*Perfect weather when long sleeve tshirts are all you need in the day, and bundling up at night makes for wonderful times.
*I get to wear hoodies and zip-up jackets
*Football season
*Hayrides
*Cornmazes
*Grilling out with the family
*Jumping in piles of leaves
*Playing card with Corey and Shannon at Thanksgiving
*Turkey and Dressing
*The smell of baked apple pies, mums, roasted nuts, toasted marshmallows outside and baking pumpkin seeds
*Driving down back roads looking at the trees, smelling the air, looking at old barns, and acting like I have all the time in the world.

Yes, I am ready for fall.

Read more...

Simply Blessed

I know it is wordless Wednesday, but I have too many words to say to just post pictures. Tuesday was a eye-opening blessing filled day. I was on my way to school and I have to take a back road. It's a road I know I drive to fast on, but it's a paved wide-open space. I was about 15 minutes down that road and there was a man standing in the middle of the road. I had to stop(obviously), but I had to stop because there has been a crash. There were at least 6 clean-up vehicles. It simply broke my heart when I was finally allowed to go, because I drove over the blood and glass. It hit me. That was someone's blood. I dont know what happened, if the people were ok, or even how many people were involved. All I know is that they were people. I thought. I cried. I prayed. That was all I could because seeing that wreck helped me realize that that could have been me. It could have been me. Seeing that helped me realize that I need to take more opportunities to do things Im not use to doing. Seeing that wreck has impacted my life more in two short days, than 21 years of lectures about "making the most of things." The rest of Tuesday went on as planned. Class, lunch, class and then home. However, I took time to go sit and talk with a friend I ran into instead of sayin, "No. I have to go study." I said yes, and even if I did miss out on some of study time, I wont remember that in a few weeks. I will remember the lunch that I had with that friend. Simply Blessed.

Tuesday night I was invited to go sing at WKU with some fellow Christians. They do it every Tuesday night in the football stadium. I had originally said yes, but when I got home I decided not to go. Well, then I started thinkin about how I am going to start sayin yes more often. So I rechanged(is that a word?) my mind back to yes. So I went to the singing. Not only did I experience a wonderful Spiritual time(which I greatly needed), I made some awesome new friends and hung out with some people that I havent seen sense high school. It never fails that when I hang out with fellow Christians(the ones that actually practice what they preach) I feel so much better. I laughed a whole lot. It felt good simply to smile and laugh; not having to fake it like I have been for months now. There wasn't the cussin, smokin, or pressure to drink like with a lot of my other friends. No one made jokes at me because I was a Christian. These are genuine people whom I can rely on. I havent had that feelin in a long time. And even though we just met, it was wonderful to meet new people who shared beliefs like I do. AND THAT WASNT THE END TO MY DAY! Simply Blessed.

I went to the singing with one of my best friends. He drove. Once we got back to his house, we started talking. We were looking at the stars and simply having a good heart to heart. We went and laid on the hood of my car and talked. We talked about life, death, our choices, and whether or not we think we are going to make it to heaven. You know, the good stuff. It was phenomenal. We talked for a little over 2 hours. When I got home, I simply felt blessed. Simply Blessed.

Today the blessings didnt stop. They came in smaller packages, but nevertheless they came. I got text from friends I havent heard from in a while saying that they valued our friendship and missed me. I got 4 wall post from friends saying that I was missed. I worked out with my Dad, and even though we were out of breath(We walked 2.4 miles) we talked. Then he taught me how to drive the tractor. Its. the small things. I loved being under the sunshine with the breeze blowing and riding the tractor. I just simply rode it around the field again and again and again. I was grinning from ear to ear.Simply Blessed.

Then. I got to go to church. Church is something I look forward to every week, because when I get there I know I am loved. I know that they are my family. Christine Brewer and I teach a class together. We teach the high school, some college, and tonight the middle school girls. I learn from them just as much as I try to teach them. We sang for the first 15 minutes of class tonight and it sounded simply heavenly. I hope these girls are getting just as much out of this class. Simply Blessed.

After church I went to my friend Klents house. We watch Top Chef every week. I love the fact that there was 7 of us there to watch a cooking show just so we could hang out together. We didnt have to fill the silence we all just sat there watching tv, and being content with each other's company. Simply blessed.

I hope you all have a wonderful day. God Bless

Read more...

Confused. Simply confused.

WARNING. THIS IS POSSIBLY THE MOST ADD BLOG I HAVE EVER WRITTEN BUT IT CAME STRAIGHT FROM MY HEART. SORRY IF YOU GET WHIPLASH FROM THE SUBJECT JUMPS


I hate that we are suppose to decide at the age of 20 what we are suppose to do for the rest of our lives. We place so much emphasis on a college degree, and how you can only get placed in life if you have one. You know how I feel about that. I think it is a big bunch of BOLOGNA. Plain and simple. Im 21 years old. How in the world am I suppose to know what I want to do when I am 50? I know that you can go back to college and change your major(Which I have already done 3 times now.) I love the medical field. Within my field alone there are hundreds of different jobs. How am I suppose to know which one I am suppose to do? I love working at the hospital, but I also love teaching. I loved substitute teaching preschoolers and elementary school kids. What if I want to do that too? My main reason for not wanting to teach is that they do not get paid enough. But is everything about moneY? I know the answer is no, but I also know it sure does help a lot. I also love to cook. If I could do anything, it would be to quit college and go to culinary school, but there isnt really a good paying job with that unless you start your own business. Then again, I love business and traveling. I would kill to have a job that sent me all over the world to negotiate deals. See. Why? Why at 21 am I suppose to have to pick between the drives that I have when I have so many of them? Sometimes, I feel so hopeless and confused about what I am going to do and if I have picked the right path. If I won the lottery, I think it would fix a lot of my issues. I would be able to get any degree I wanted and not think twice about tuition prices. I could travel to Greece anytime I wanted to or go to Australia for the weekend. I could go to India for kicks and giggles. I could donate money to starving kids, and organizations that dont get enough recognition. Maybe, I should start playin my odds with the lottery. ;)

Whenever I get overwhelmed with thoughts like this, I just wish I had someone to talk to. I may have a lot of good friends, but over the last few months I have lost the people I would call and cry to. Things happen, people make choices, people get in relationships, people grow apart and start their own lives, and people choose other people. I realize this. It's apart of life. It's apart of growing up, but nevertheless it still hurts. I miss my best friend. I miss my close friends. They say, "You can still call me." but it will never be the same. This simply breaks my heart and feel hopeless. Theres a song by Remedy Drive that has helped me a lot in the last few weeks, it hasnt fixed my breaking heart. Only time can do that, but I know it will make me stronger. Here are the lyrics by Remedy Drive, the song is called Hope. Maybe it will help some of you out. I love you all. God Bless

What a beautiful sight for the worn and weary eye
The glimmering light in the corner of a broken sky
Hope sweet hope like a star burning bright
When the sun goes down and the fears begin to fly

Hope’s not giving up
Hope’s not giving up
In a cold dark night she’s not giving
Not giving up

Hold on tight this city’s about to break
In the middle of the night lying there wide awake
Hope sweet hope how much more can she take
Being our strength when our hearts are out of faith

bridge:
Hope is with me in my time of trouble
When it all comes crashing down she will stay
By my side digging through the rubble
She’s not giving up - not giving up - not giving up

Read more...

Things I Love Thursdays

Some days it is easier for me to think of things that I love, and when I sit down I have to force myself to think of the positive things in life. I have so much I am blessed with, but today is one of those days where all I can focus on is the negative. We all have those days where we get down. Today is my day to be down. Soooo I am going to make myself talk about one thing that I love. That one thing today is baking.

I know everyone has their one thing that is there stress relief, but I have several and most of them are childish such as playdough and coloring. However, baking is something that can put a smile on my face. I love the process and the final product. I love that when my world seems to be falling apart and there is no method to the madness that I can follow a recipe and I know there is a 99.9% guarantee that I am going to get what I want. I adore that, because sometimes in life when you follow the instructions your life still comes crashing down, but not when you bake. You follow the instructions and you get what you want. So here is my treat for you today. Here is my favorite recipe for cookies

The BEST Butter Cookies:

4 sticks of butter soften
1 1/2 cups of sugar
2 eggs
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
5 cups of all purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon of salt
2 teaspoons of baking powder

Combing flour, baking powder, and salt: Set aside

Cream butter and sugar in a large mixing bowl until light and fluffy. Beat in eggs and vanilla. Gradually add flour mixture. Mix Well.

Divide dough into four equal pieces form into a ball and then flatten. Wrap in plastic wrap and refrigerate for at least 3 hours.

Roll out dough, one piece at a time on lightly floured surface to 1/8 inch thickness. Keep remaining dough refrigerated. Cut into desire shapes with floured cookie cutters and place 1 inch apart on ungreased cookie sheets.

Bake 6 to 8 minutes or until lightly browned at 375 degrees. Transfer cookies to wire racks cool before frosting.

Frosting for Cookies:

1/2 cup butter softened
4 cups powdered sugar
4 tablespoons mil
1 teaspoon vanilla extract

Cream butter, gradually add sugar. Beat well. Add milk and vanilla, mixing until smooth.

Enjoy!

God Bless

Read more...

Faithful Fridays

Gossip. Its is all something we have done at one time or another. As much as we hate to admit it, it's something we do. Sometimes we talk about others to fit in, or to lift ourselves up. Working with all females, I have learned that gossip is something that happens almost every minute. Sometime it is about each other, and sometimes it is about patients. I was listening to 2 nurses and another tech talk about someone today. I didnt say anything, but I kept my mouth shut. Doesn't that make me just as bad? Just because I laughed at the joke instead of sayin it doesn't make me any less guilty. Its so frustrating because you know that if you are sitting aroun and talking about people, then they are doing to he same about you. Thats a fact. We are going to get takked about. End of Story. We are suppose to lift each other up. So that is my goal this week to not only keep my mouth shut, but to make a stand. I hope you will join me.

God Bless

Read more...

Oh, school. I did not miss you. On Tuesdays I have class basically for 12 hours. My first class starts at 9 and goes until 11:45, then I have a break but during that time I am suppose to work on my online class, then I have lecture and lab from 3 until 8:45. Yes, you read that right. Almost a 6 hour class. Gag. Me. I mean dont get me wrong, the teacher is great(for the first day) and is hyterical. He is like Robin Williams. I mean he is all over the place. I can't follow him....at all. This is going to be a long semester.

I wouldnt be going at all if my Papa hadnt pointed out that "the longer I put off going to school, then the longer I put off getting my degree." I wish you could do things in life without a degree. I really want to travel. Go places. Meet new people. Explore places. Save people. I dont know, I simply feel that there is so much more that I could be doing to benefit more people than sitting behind a desk reading stories about Kentucky, analyzing poetry, and learning about Freud's theory for the 1000th time. I hate school. I know I take the face that I am allowed to study for granted and Im sure that there are people out there that would kill for the chance of a good education. Im just bitter that I have to waste 15-20 years of my life reading about things instead of doing them. Ok, Im off my soap box now.

I hope you all had a Terrific Tuesday. God bless you!

Read more...

Faithful Fridays

Ive decided to start blogging on Fridays something that impacted my faith during the week. Working at a hospital, there is usually multiple occurrences that affect my faith daily, but I am going to to focus on one particular event each Friday.

This weeks event happened last night. Last night at work I had a patient that is a paraplegic, meaning he is paralyzed from the waist down. As were doing some work to him, the nurse asked him if he minded talking about the accident that cause this. Long story short, he has been paraylzed for 22 years from a car wreck. Good thing, he was facing the opposite direction, because I started to cry. Not from his story(and Im not discrediting how tragic it is), but from his attitude about it. He is happy. Inspite of all of the things he has happened to him after the wreck, he says he has been blessed. He played in wheelchair games, lives on his own, drives, takes care of himself, grocery shops by himself, and many more things. I cried, because I realized how selfish I am. I take for granted my health, my happiness, and my blessings. Sometimes I let the pettiest problems get my down. I realized that I need to make the best out of every situation that I am faced with. I hope that no matter what challenges come my way, I face them like my patient did. He blessed me more than he will ever know.

So my lesson to myself this week: Do not take life, health, and happiness for granted.

God Bless You!

Read more...

Thing I love Thursdays....

Things I love Thursdays....

I absouletly love God and the wonders he give to us. I take him and the blessings he gives me for granted. Besides His Son, My Family and Friends. I am going to tell you what ten of my favorite blessings are. I dont know if we are suppose to rank our blessings, but I hold a few things in higher esteem than others. Here they are.




1.Stars. I am obessed with stars. I think they are my absolute favorite things God gave us. I dont think there is anything more breath-taking that stepping outside and looking up and having your breath taken away. In the crisp cool air that makes you shiver and seeing nothing but miles and miles of sparkling diamonds. Thinking, My God, made that. The being that created this mess of a person, also created those and He views me more special than the stars. ME! It absolutely blows my mind that God thinks I am as beautiful as something that takes my breath away.

2. Sunsets/Sunrise. Since I have started working nights, I get to see both. The sun is setting when I go into work, and it is rising when I step out to take my breaks in the morning. There is something special about looking at the sun as it rises or sets. How the colors of the sky go from being vibrant blue all day to suddenly pinks, oranges, and reds. How the world is going to sleep or waking up with this big ball of light. God is so cool that he gives a reminder to start and end our day.

3. Bodies of Water. If I could be any animal, it would be a dolphin. Yeah, it would be cool to be a bird, or a tiger, or even an elephant. But I would be a dolphin, because beneath out world of land there is a whole another world waiting to be discovered. A world with brigh colors, predators, starfish, shells, and it's own volcanos. A world that men have not even begin to scrape the surface of discovering.

4. Rain. Call me a child, but I dont think that to this day there is anything better than jumping in a puddle. I did that the other day on my way into work and my shoes squeaked the whole night. Rain is something that is so simple and breath-taking. There is nothing more peaceful than hearing it hit a tin-roof.

5. Flowers. ESPECIALLY Buttercups, Gerber Daisys, and my new found favorite Zinnias. Its the simplicity of a petal that makes these my favorites.

6. Fields. I love living outside of the city and driving around just looking a green fields, hay fields, or even fields on fire. I think that when wind blows across a grassy field, and the grass just ripples like someone tossed a stone in a pool of water is a beautiful sight.

7. Trees. I love them. Especially old winding trees, or trees that stand solo in a middle of field. The trees standing solo is my favorite, because it makes me wonder how they got their. Did someone plant them on purpose, did a bird drop a seed, or did God say "hmmm, this needs some spicing up"

8. Medical Field. I adore the medical field. I hope to one day be a nurse practitioner. The medical field changes everyday. That's why I love it. I love a good challenge. You can never learn everything, because something is always changing.

9. Books. I love to read. I love fiction, non-fiction, historical fiction, and Spiritually challenging books. Occasionally a good sci-fi novel is nice. Reading is one my stress reliefs. It allows me to go elsewhere when I dont want to be here.

and finally 10(Im stopping here, I havent slept in 24 hours ish.

10. Smiling and Laughing. I know it's a corny way to finish off, but its true. I love a good laugh. A smile can brighten anyones day. It can save a life. It can make a person, and without it it can break a person.

Ok, there are 10 of my favorite blessing. I wish you all a blessed day!

God Bless!

Read more...

Wordless Wednesday

9lb 8oz. boy named Charlie Cooper Bell. My newest cousin. How precious is he?

Read more...

I have come back to the Blogging World.

Hello, my dear ole friend. I have missed you bloggin world. Remember that time that I fell off the face of the planet? If I do recall correctly that was almost 6 months ago to the day. Let me tell you why, I fell off the face of the planet, and update you on my life.

In the past six months I have....

*worked 48-62 hours a week on night shifts
*taken two summer classes(and paid for them out of pocket)
*taken a youth trip to Gatlinburg(February)
*completed my State Test and Passed for my Certified Nursing Assistant(February)
*Watch my oldest nephew play soccer
*Had an amazing weekend with the Durham Sisters
*played a lot of disc golf
*turned 21
*seen a lot of friends graduate and now begin college
*Been to the Durhams house for a really good weekend
*Gone to the Drive-In a LOT
*Gone to Fall Creek Falls with my Family
*Spent some good time with my Little Brother and his girlfriend, Chelsea(it was awesome having a sister for a month!!)
*Missed church camp for the first time in 10 years
*Won a radio contest and met Chris and Conrad, Living Anthem, and Tal & Acacia
*Met and become friends with some really cool nurses
*Had to say good-bye to some really cool nurses
*Died my hair purple(it was suppose to be red).
*Died my hair black(to cover the purple, but it only made it a darker purple)
*Died my hair brown(but it turned black)
*Been to Tennessee to see my Grandmother
*Been to Alabama to see my Mamaw and Papaw
*Been to Connecticut to see Julie(one of my roommates from Florida)
*Found out my Grandmother has breast cancer
*Lost some of my best friends
*Found out my Aunt has cancerous tissues
*Spent some nights star gazing with some friends
*Regretted decisions I have made
*Had a new baby cousin Charlie born!
*rekindled some old friendship
*debated life choices
*went down a path Im not proud of
*struggled to find my way back to God
*faced some tough challenged
*Watched a Best Friend be put into Vandy, not be able to eat for two months, get well, then get worse again.
*Challenging my religion
*visiting other churches(Alvaton, is still my home)
*Cried
*Laughed
*Laughed until I cried
*Hoped
*Had dreams shattered
*Made New Dreams
*Found a new love for doodling
*Tried to teach myself Calligraphy
*Met a man who has 24 children
*Dealt with death more than I would have liked to
*Bought at least 4 new pairs of tennis shoes(I may or may not have an obession)
and finally
*Been blessed.

Theses are just a few of the events that have happened in my life. I have changed a lot in the six months. I have been faced with challenges I never would thought could happen. They have made me bitter, then I someone forgave me for something I did. I learned that no matter how many times I am hurt, I have to forgive. It took me messing up(and quite badly I might ask....please do NOT ask questions), and then receiving forgiveness to help me realize that I have been to hard on people. I have learned to forgive more quickly; yes, the pain is still there, but it only hurts me to hold on. I know this was kind of heavy for my first post back after six months, sorry for that. I just wanted you to know where I have been for six months

Read more...

Weekend Update!!

Okie dokie....

Friday: After I got off work on Friday, I went to a CONCERT. Im sure you would love to know who I saw, right? Well let me tell you. I saw....drum roll please....Lady Antebellum and Tim McGraw!! TADA!! It was a wonderful concert and let me tell you ladies, Tim McGraw looks real nice in Wranglers and a black shirt. Umm hmmm. Haha. Ok, so several of you probably dont know who Lady A is. Lady A has been one of my new favorites for about a year and I have really wanted to see them for a while. But I have this really phenominal best friend, Urna. She bought me tickets for Christmas!! I was so excited I couldnt stand myself. Wahoo!! Let me tell you about our lovely adventure to Rupp Arena(in Lexington, this is where the concert was).

Urna and I got to Lexington with no problem....well a little misguided direction but we figured it out. Ok, so we were trying to find a place to park. I decided to be smart and go up to the 4th level of the parking structure and back into a spot. That way when we left we could just pull out and not have to wait for someone to let us out. This was my brilliant mastermind plan. Sounded good at the time. (we will get back to this in a bit).

So we get to our seats and we are in what would be general admission seats at a basketball game. So its bleacher seating. So people are leaning against our seats so we tell them just to sit there until people come to claim the seat we are in. So eventually we end having to claim our seats. After Lady A's performance. I ask the guy in front of me what kind of camera he has because he was able to zoom in on their faces. I was so impressed and as we were talking the girl two rows in front of me turns arounds and yells "GET YOUR FOOT OUT OF MY BUTT!" Then the conversation proceeds G is for the poor guy in front of me . C is for crazy girl two rows in front of me

C: GET YOUR FOOT OUT OF MY BUTT
G: You dont have to yell. You could just ask me.
C: I DID!!
G: No you didnt.
(At this point the crazy girls mom and dad both yell in a round)
C: I DID 3 Times!
C Mom: SHE DID 3 TIMES
C Dad: YES SHE DID 3 TIMES!!
G: Im sorry I didnt hear.
C: She cusses at the guy....
C DAD: YOU WATCH YOUR MOUTH.

Well everyone gets quiet. Yall know me, I dont do well in quiet so I bust out laughing. I laugh really hard. Haha. I know I shouldnt have but then I told the guy in front of me he could lay on me if he needed too. Then the guy beside me says....Makes you want to sit Indian style doesnt it? Haha. Oh my. It was so tense and awkward. Then the rest of the night everyone was making fun of the Crazy family.

Ok so 2nd fun event of the night....

After the concert, Anna and I get out to our car. Well my thinking process, didnt work out so well. We went to the 4th level because we thought it would make it easier, but we didnt think that all the cars on levels 1,2, and 3 had to get out too. Dumb. I know. Haha. Im going to try and explain this next situation and I hope it makes sense. Im sorry if it doesnt, but it was just as awkward and tense as the previous incident. After we had been sitting and waiting to get out for about 45 minutes, this explorer beside me backs up and does a 1600 point turn to get turned around and facing forward to try and inch his way out. After waiting for about 10 more minutes, the passenger gets out and waves to the car in line. He pats the hood of the car and then just stands there. Yes. He stands there and physically blocks the car so that his friend can pull out. Well the car being block gets mad(and rightfully so in my opinion) starts honking. Well then the guy flips her off. Then he lets 2 other cars go cause she was honking. It was so bad. Then the girl in the car starts cussin him out. Then he starts cussin her back. So then he gets in the car and the other car trys to cut him off so he throws his car door open and blocks her again! What a jerk. That's all I can say.

After we finally got out of the parking structure,we got lost, I fell asleep at the wheel for like 10 seconds and then Anna yelled at me. Haha. It was a scary long trip but I wouldnt have changed it for the world!

Saturday: Anna and I were bums. We watched the UT game(AND WHY YES WE DID BEAT UK!) then we went to play with my nephews. They are by far the most precious kids in the whole world. Haha. I adore them. They are 3 of the 4 boys that will ever have me wrapped completely around their finger. The 4th is a little boy at my church. Haha.

Sunday: We went to church, then to the nursing home. Puertos for lunch. Church again. Chase's house. Now study time.

Ok. I think that got everything. If I forgot something I will let you know ASAP. Haha.

PS-I dont do this often, but I am going to request prayers. I am struggling with several different things in my life right now. Prayers would be loads of help. Thank you so much

Love you all!
God Bless

Read more...

Things I love Thursday

Ok so I have some VERY VERY talented friends. I have this friend and I call her my CFF and she knows who she is. She is an incredibly artist but wont give me her work so I cant feature her tonight as well.

BUT I do have a friend named Emily P. who is just as talented and some of you know who that is. Let me tell you about EP. She is one of the smartest wittiest girls I know. I am so glad I am privileged to call her a friend. Not only is she a Godly Christian, she is incredibly down to Earth. We have lots and lots in common, and she is one of the few girls I know that watches Chuck. She is an amazing person and incredibly beautiful on the inside and out. If that wasnt enough to make you want to be her best friend, here is another interesting fact about EP. She is an AMAZING artist. She designed my tattoo (which I will be getting very soon :) She doodles and I have lots of her doodling. Here are some of my favorites

Read more...

My Weekend combined with Winterfest: Part 2

Okie dokie this is the part where I do my regular part:

Saturday:

Because I am a big kid and am a chaperon now, I woke up at the crack of dawn to help cook breakfast, then got ready and went to G-burg to go to Winterfest. This year was so much better than last year. I love the singing I think it is hands-down the most uplifiting part of the weekend. After first session, a group of us went and hung out in Gatlinburg. We rode one of those ski-lifts to the top, which is on my bucket list so I was really excited. After our break we went back for evening session and it was loads of fun. Then we went back to the cabin and hung out. Colton, a boy in our youth group, decided to get re-baptized!! That was so neat!!

Sunday: We went back to Alvaton, took a 30 minute nap. Went to Church. After Church Christine, Kanin-our new friend- and me went to Toots and had a lot of fun.

It was a really good weekend. I had 9 hours of sleep over the past 48 hours so this isnt very detailed. Also I am working clinicals now so I have to be up at 4:30 and I have been going since 4:30 today so its my bedtime :)

PS: Quick Not Me Monday Note

No, I did not go to Kroger tonight so I could get a movie at Red Box. No, I did not decide I need a jacket so I did NOT open my truck and lay my keys in so I could put on my jacket. NO I did NOT shut my trunk and then immediately realize I locked my keys in my trunk. No, my phone did not decide to go to low battery as I was calling my mom for help. No, my mom was NOT in Glasgow and No my dad was NOT teaching a class. No, I did not have to call the person I was suppose to be hanging out with to come pick me up. No, I did not bust out laughing at my situation in the parking lot, where people could stop and stare. No, because this would be silly of my to do :)

Love yall! God Bless

Read more...

My Weekend combined with Winterfest: Part 1

So I love to read Not Me Mondays, but I am no good at writing them so I am going to tell you about my weekend *well my Friday night* using Not Me and then the rest of the weekend normally.

Friday: No, I did not get 5 hours of sleep and work all day, then drive to Gatlinburg. That would be silly of me. No, Christine and I did NOT leave almost an hour after we were suppose to. No, we did NOT get McDonalds before we left Bowling Green and then stop half way there and get McDonalds again. No, Christine did NOT eat a 10 piece nugget then one of my hamburgers, then at the second which she definitely did NOT suggest get 3 double cheese burgers. And no she definitely did NOT eat all 3 before I even got halfway through my nuggets. (No, I did NOT just call her out on that....love me?) The whole way there Christine was NOT saying that something bad was going to happen. When my GPS, Nancy, told us to turn onto a shady looking road in the dark Christine did NOT say, "Well, Nancy hasnt lead us astray this far. Just turn." No, We really didn't almost drive backwards off a cliff. No, we did NOT follow the gps to Mt Death Trap. No, the road did not suddenly stop and turn into a drop off. We did NOT try to turn around, and back off a bigger drop off. (AKA The side of a cliff). We did NOT try to drive forward to turn around, and No the drive way was NOT steep and NO it was NOT icy. Because that couldnt have made bad things worse. NO the tires did not start spinnin. No I did not slip backwards more. No I did not almost cry. No it was NOT the scariest moment of my life. No, my breaks werent smoking, and no our phones didnt loose service at the most inconvient time. No, I didnt start shaking and could NOT stop until 4 hours later. No that is not what happened Friday night. :(

Read more...

Things I love Thursday

Ta da!! Things I love Thursday!!

There are a lot of things I love....I really wanted to blog about my friend Emily BUT currently my bestest friend in the whole world(aka my iphone) is broken so I cant upload my pictures. So Ill have to blog about her when my phone is better and no longer sick :(

Ok so the 2nd thing I was going to blog about it my church. I go to Alvaton Church of Christ.
When I was in 5th grade my parents made the best decision of my life. My Papa decided to take a job at Alvaton. At the time I hated it. I hated the school. I hated the fact that I had to leave my friends. I hated the move. I hated everything. Even though then I thought my world was going to end, I grew to realize my world was just beginning. The school that I hated, became one where I made friends....friends that have been there for me and hold a place near and dear to my heart. My old friends kept in touch. The move led me to two really cool houses.

Alvaton is by far the most special and loving place on Earth. They are truly people of God. They are not only my friends, but they are my mentors who give me advise. As I have grown up and moved, I have been to different churches over the past few years and even though they were each special in their on way: not a one can hold a candle to the way Alvaton makes me feel. Alvaton is home. It is the thing I look forward to every week. Its my pick-me-up. Its my love. Over the years, I have laughed there, I have grown there, I have cried there, I have loved there, and I have been loved there. I am loved, and my brothers and sisters in Christ make sure I know that. I can go there and know that I am accepted and loved for who I am.

Not only are they always there for me, they share my loved for God. They worship my Savior with me. The help lead me to Christ and aid me in my spiritual walk. They challenge me. I would not be who I am today without them. We are not perfect, but if you can show me a family that is, I will be incredibly impressed. I didnt say find me a perfect church, find me a perfect family. Yes, Alvaton is a church, but more-so Alvaton is a family. They are my family.

If you had asked me if I liked Alvaton 9 years ago, I would have hands down said no. If you asked me today if I liked Alvaton: My answer would be, No I dont like Alvaton.... I love Alvaton. I without a doubt love Alvaton with my whole heart.

Read more...

My Valentine's Weekend!!

Hello One and All!!
For the record, I just want to say I hate(with a passion)Valentine's day. It's nothing personal. I just feel like it a commerical holiday. I am sure there is a wonderful beautiful story of the origins of V-day, but it wont change my mind. In high school up a group of friends of mine, including Christine, made I Hate Valentine's Day tshirts. I have wore that tshirt ever year since we made them. And that was my sophomore year of high school. BUT I do have to say that I had a wonderful weekend. And I just cant wait to tell you about it.

Friday:
After I got off work at my big kid job, I went to church. You see I was volunteered, by my lovely mother, to be in charge of child care for church. The church had a couple's dinner for valentine's day and child care was provided. I was in charge of care for 22 kids ranging in age from 4 months to 3rd grade. Well, needless I say, it was a large age gap. Haha. We ended up doing centers and I rotated rooms every 30 minutes. I had some wonderful help from my friends. I wouldnt have been able to done it without them. After that adventure, the teens and my helpers and I decided to go bowling. We went to Southern Lanes, and they were full. SO we went to Crescent Bowling, and they were full as well. So, what does a bunch of youth group kids do when they can't go bowling? They go back to the church building! Haha. We played cards, basketball, and hide-and-go seek in the dark until 2 am. I would just like to point out, you know you are a good kid when you are hanging out with your youth group at the church building until 2am on a Friday night playing hide-and-go seek. Haha. My friends Emily and Bethany spent the night. (Im going to blog about Emily here soon....get excited)

Saturday:
We woke up(way earlier than I wanted to mind you) and took Emily to her car. I came back home Bethany and I hung out for a while and talked, then we went to Shoney's for brunch, ran a few errands, and then came home. When I got home, Ainsley(who is Elisa Beth's daughter) was spending the day with my mom. Ainsley and I hung out for a little bit and then my 3 precious nephews came up for a little bit. I played with them for a while but then I went to Nashville. I am a season ticket holder at TPAC. My friend Anna and I have tickets together, but she was sick :( But Emily went in her place so I didnt have to go by myself. We went to see Drowsy Chaperon which I had never heard of before, but let me tell you, I adored it. I loved it. I laughed until I cried. It was amazing.

Sunday:
I went to church. I am going to blog about my church later, but let me tell you. I love my church so much. After church I went to eat with my parents for Valentine's day at a Mexican Restaurant in Scottsville. Then I met up with my friend Jessica(who is Bethany's sister). We went to the rodeo. It was my first time ever going to the rodeo and I loved it!! After the rodeo we went to Walmart to kill time before church. Sunday night, we went to church and after church a group of us went bowling. It was a lot of fun. I came in 2nd to last both times, but nevertheless it was loads of fun.

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!!
God Bless and Love you!

Read more...

Wordless Wednesday: Some of my last pictures at Disney.

Christine, Amy, and Sonja came to visit me my last week at Disney. :)

Read more...

Nursing is scary(and disgusting) business.

Dont get me wrong, I am so excited about becoming a Nurse. I am over-filled with joy that I get to care for people for a living. However, when I care for someone, it means their life is in my hands! Do you know how scary that is? If you are a mom or soon-to-be mom, then you do. If I pull the iv too soon, or read the wrong chart, or misread the blood pressure....I could kill someone. Thats scary stuff. Nursing isnt very clean. End of story. Haha. Ill leave all that out, but lets just say today we did full baths. Haha. Ok, so I am nervous and excited. I realize that as a Nurse, I get to have an impact on each and every person I come in contact with. We all have this opportunity, but I get to have it while caring for someone. I can't tell you how blessed I feel to have this opportunity in my life. I wanted to share something that our instructor shared with us today:

You are what people see when they arrive here.
Yours are the eyes they look into when they’re frightened and lonely.
Yours are the voices people hear when they ride the elevators and when they try to sleep and when they try to forget their problems. You are what they hear on their way to appointments that could affect their destinies and what they hear after they leave those appointments.
Yours are the comments people hear when I think they can’t.
Yours is the intelligence and caring that people hope they’ll find here. If you’re noisy, so is the medical center. If you’re rude, so is the medical center. And if you’re wonderful – so is the medical center.

No visitors, no patients can ever know the real you, the you that you know is there — unless you let them see it. All they can know is what they see and hear and experience.

Now someone please try and tell me that isnt powerful and intimidating all at the same time. Do any of you have good or bad experiences with Nurses? Id like to know.

Love yall. God Bless.

Read more...

Chuck

Ok. I know Im suppose to do a "Not Me Monday" but that's just not for me. INSTEAD.... I want to introduce you to the man I am going to marry(He just doesnt know it yet....might need to work on that). This is Zachary Levi. Not only is he precious, but he's a Christian too. I think that is so impressive. Here's an article on him. Ok that's my spill. Ps if you look him, check out his smirk. Gets me everytime. Haha.


http://www.relevantmagazine.com/culture/tv/features/19756-the-life-and-faith-of-zac-levi


PS I want poll question: Who is your celebrity crush?

God Bless! Love yall.

Read more...

Mommy Wow....Im a Big Kid Now.

Orientation. Direct Deposit. Benefits. Life Insurance. Health Insurance. Vision and Dental Insurance. Deductible. FSA. Medication Therapy Management Service. Shift Differential. Paid Time Off. What do these words have in common? They are all for a big kid job! Guess what? I heard all of these words and hundreds more that I have never heard before today. Whoa. Talk about having a headache. Haha. But guess what? I like it.

For those of you who dont know, I started my first real Big Kid Job. Yes, I am growing up. Its scary. I dont like it, but I like it. I like being in a job where I have to have a photo id to get into certain parts of the building. I like sitting through orientation for 5 hours and then working on computer classes for 4. I like being confused. You know why I like it? I like it cause I feel like I am doing something with my life and I am sooooo excited about it. I like taking the initiative and picking my own insurance plan and filling out paperwork. Its really scary, but I like it. (Did I mention I like it? Ok. Just checking).

It's like going on a roller coaster. You know when you are sitting at the dock and you scared, and then you start to move. The climb up takes five hundred years, but then you drop and you scream and you love it. As soon as you stop, you want to do it all over again. Thats the way I felt about today, and I have a feeling Im going to want to stay on this roller coaster. I know I will have to do the icky nasty stuff that no one else wants to do, but Im ok with that. I realize that I am the low man on the totem pole, but at least Im on the totem pole right? Right.

One of the highlights of my day was going to the Scrub shop. I tried on Scrubs(and even if I didnt buy a pair yet) I came out cheesin it. I couldnt stop smiling. I was so happy about being in them. The other highligh of my day was getting my ID for the Medical Center. Its the little things in life, but thats what life is made of.

I have to go because I have orientation again tomorrow :) (Im excited!!) And I have 6 chapters to read for my class and I have homework. By the way, not only and I working full time, I am going to school full time as well. Wish me luck. Pray for me. Im going to need it.

PS Before I go I have to tell you this. Today the Chaplin came in to talk to us about the Ethics Committee, and the whole time he was talking I was trying to figure out how I knew him. The first thing he said was
"Today you are going to witness two miracles. 1. You are going to hear a Southern Baptist Preacher keep his lesson under 30 minutes and 2. Im not going to ask for benevolence." Haha I laughed real hard. But the more he talked, I realized I had to know him. I thought maybe I had met him through Dad(my Daddy is a preacher). The whole 30 minutes he talked, I kept trying to figure it out. When he was leaving, he said something about reffing on the weekends! I know he was now. He had reffed my basketball league and umpired for my softball league growing up. He gave me a Technical one time in basketball. Haha. How funny is that? Ok. I have to go. For real. I love you all. God Bless.

Read more...

Im back: But this isnt my normal bubbly post.

Hello One and All.
I dont know if anyone still reads this, and if you do kudos to you because I am an awful blogger. I am back from Disney. Life is in full swing. I just got a job as a CNA at the Medical Center in BG. Im so excited!! They pay for me to go back and get my RN so that means most of the rest of my college is paid for!! Im so excited I cant stand it. :) Ok, so I start my job tomorrow and Im really nervous. BUT thats not why I got on here. Haha. I just thought Id update you on my life, before I get into the real reason I got on here....now time for the serious stuff.

Ive been thinking(WHICH doesnt always end well. haha) But Ive been thinking of how much I take for granted. I realized tonight how much I miss things and when I had them I took them for granted AND I truely regret it. Ive realize things I have now I dont appreciate them. When will I truely start to appreciate the things I have now? When I loose them. I need to start now. I sit here and think about where my life has gone and where its going. Things I had the chance to do because of some stupid or selfish reason and now I cant have those chances back. I think of my friends and high school. Even though high school was the worst time ever for me(lets just leave it at that) I let opportunities slip past. I should have done things that I didnt; I should have taken certain risk and put myself out there but I didnt. I think about the friendship I did have but let go. I think of the friendships I should have made, but didnt take the time too. I took for granted those 4 years and you think I would have learned from missing out of things. Then I went to college.

My road to college was a weird one. I had registered, got a roommate, and was set on one college. But then two weeks before classes started, I changed my mind. Yes, I had some influences but it was one time I'm glad I didnt remain stubborn in my decision. I transferred to FHU. For those of you who dont know, FHU is a little microscopic school in a microscopic town. To most people it might seem insignificant, but it played one of the most significant parts in my life. I spent a year and a half at FHU. It was by far the best year and a half in my life. I made friendships that changed my life. I heard lessons, singing, and prayers that changed my soul. I played games. I laughed. I cried. I was a part of Social Club that still has a huge part of my heart and I want it to succeed. It is what college is suppose to be like. It was my world. But while I was there, I didnt do everything I wanted to because I thought I would have 3 more years to do these things. I dont have 3 more years there. But because of finances, I dont even have one more semester there. If I went back, things wouldnt be the same. I shouldnt have let money govern my decision, but I did. There were other factor but money was the main one. This will be one of the biggest regrets of my life. I want all of you that are still there to be active, be involed. Go to devos. Go to Clay Chapel. Go to Social Club Meetings. Do it. Dont think twice. Do the stupid stuff. Do the "lame" stuff. Because once its not there you will miss it something fierce.

I had many missed opportunities at Disney. Those linger in my mind. But those wont haunt me like my missed ones at FHU. The reason this post came about is because Ive been doing nothing productive these past few weeks I have been at home. Im now getting a "Big Kid Job." And that scares me. haha. I know that a lot of my "play" time is over. BUT on the bright side. Im sure I will have lots of stories for you to come. What this comes down to is to make the most of your time. No matter what you are doing and where you are....live it up. Live life to fullest(however cliche that might be). I just want to make a pledge to myself that when I am not working and when I am not studying(Im going to school full time and work full time) that I will make the most of the rest of my life. I love you all. I wish a Happy Lord's Day. God Bless


PS I know life is full of should of's. Im not going to focus on those. I was just stating some things I miss and regret. Im not going to dwell on them.

Read more...